Wordless Wednesday (almost)

O-R-E-O  Hudson First Taste

                                                ALL GONE  looks like the end of the world

Not A Team Player

Well I was told at work today that I was not a Team Player because I wouldn't help one of the lazy ass girls to help do her job (um Im not the vault teller, Im not getting paid extra to do you job UM K THANKS) now back to where I was So I frankly told her I was busy doing some of our test that we had to do. So for that Im not a team player... Just let me tell you why Im not a team player anyway as you all know who ever has been following me for a while I lost my twin baby girls in the beginning of March They told me to take off so I took off for two weeks (which was not long enough) we had to plan a funeral and get everything prepared. Well about a month ago my boss comes to me to tell me I had gotten wrote up and that I needed to sign this piece of paper for being gone  when the girls passed away WTF up until that point I loved loved loved my job I would do anything for them come in early stay later if I needed to but since I got wrote up it a whole nother ball game Im pissed I HATE MY JOB but I go cause I like some of the people who work there ( I said some)haha but other than that I told them that it was bullshit that I got wrote up its not like I wanted this to happen my god I would  doing anything possible to have my girls with us again. So folks me being bitter because they wrote me up because the girls death= me not being a Team Player........Sorry once you piss me off on a stupid reason like that I get just A LOT   little bitter and yes I do hold a grudge pretty well to if I do say so myself.

So no Im not a Team Player. I will never ever go out of my way for them anymore..
PS why did she wait so long to write me up for the girls....I dont understand

Thanks for reading my vent post any way my Due Date for the girls was supposed to be July 20 in 7 days please pray that I get through that hard day....

Back In The Saddle Again

Long Post Alert Im Sorry but I Threw in A Few Pictures To Break It Up

Hudson Helping Me Do Dishes

So Zach and I finally had the Big Talk last week. I told him that I wanted to get off my birth control in August so my body will be clear and everything out of my system so we can start trying again in the fall after Hudson's 1st Birthday. We always knew we wanted the kids to be close together and were ready to start trying again. This is what I want and this is what I need. We are very firm with our decision and we will not be telling any family of our plans because frankly its none of there business we dont want to be told we should wait we dont want to be told its to soon and last but not least I dont think its a good idea as we plan to get pregnant around Christmas Time an the beginning of the year I would love to have a Fall/Halloween Baby. I just want another baby. Im physical ready and this is what we want. Im ready and I will start to prepare my body for getting ready I will be going to the gym everyday rather than every other day and I will start taking my vitamins again. Im very happy with my decision and Im ready to get started again.

On another not we had a wonderful weekend it started off Friday which was kinda a sad day for me between putting a contract on a house getting pressured to buy Zachs moms house (I think she is ready to go and move on after everything she has been threw in that house) she would really like us to buy it from her but its just not enough room for us with Zachs office and all our stuff to fit in the home or park the cars and trailers. Thats another post for another day although I would love that house Zach and I have so many memories in that house from when we were little. So with my emotions running crazy that day I just needed a good cry and zach was there for me. He asked what I wanted to do that night and I told him I really just wanted to stay home and eat take out and watch movies. It was so much fun and so low key.

                                      Who me Im not doing anything Mom

Saturday was a new day I kinda felt refreshed  and needed some retail therapy so Hudson and I woke up to the door bell ringing bright and early and who was it Auntie Sam we always have so much fun together Zach always jokes that we are each others shadows Ha So what did we do grab Hudson and did some shopping as always Hudson lucked up and got some new outfits and we went and got some party favors for his Birthday. Then came home and zach grilled it was so fun.

                                           Love this picture he reminds me of Billy Joel
And now for Today it was super low key just us playing with Hudson and cleaning and making dinner. Im sorry for the long post and who ever made it threw Thanks. Ill leave you with some weekend pictures of Hudson. I hope everyone has a wonderful week.

                              Some one got into my purse

            Hudson and I hope yall have a great Monday

TODAY IS

Today is July 9, 2010. Today is a Bad Day for me. Today is a Sad Day. Today is a mer 11 Days of when I was supposed to be having my Mallory Grace and Mary Grace my sweet baby girls. As the days approach it makes me sad that I had them just 4 months earlier as Im reading other peoples blogs who have experienced a loss in a baby/babies it makes me incredibly sad. I miss my girls more than ever and its been really hard the past few weeks I cant believe there gone this is not how it was supposed to be in a few weeks we were supposed to be bringing our baby girls home to there big brother it was not supposed to happen this way as I go on I still get mad and angry and sad. I told Zach that I kinda wanted to go to church this Sunday I think that would be good for us but Im sill very angry with myself, just with everyone and everything. This was not how it was supposed to be, they should be in there mommy and daddy's arms. Im just speechless.......... I Miss My Baby Girls.....Life is not Fair......

Big Day Tommorrow

At 4:00 pm tommorrow we will be trying to put a contract on a house. Maybe all will be great and go well it's kinda a fixer upper bit it has land and is so pretty I can see all our kids growing up and playing there. We are going to make an offer and we will see what they bring to the table. I'll keep y'all updated I hope y'all have a great hump day.

4 th of July Weekend Recap

We had so much fun this weekend It was really great and we all needed it. The whole family came in from New Mexico, Bowling Green and so forth. It started off Friday I got off work at 1:00 which was no big deal then I got home and Auntie Sam came over while Zach went to work for a bit so Sam, Hudson and I went to our favorite store Target to pick up a few things. Then Saturday we got up and ready to have some fun. Hudson loves the water and we work with him almost every single day were teaching him how to swim and go under water and he loves going under water here is a picture of him going all the way under. He already knows how to hold his breath.

 Now please dont freak out we were there the whole time we do this in swimming classes

then after that Sam and I made another Target run to go buy him a wagon we thought since the poor baby dont have enough stuff ha-ha he needed a wagon for the fireworks. We go every year and the MIL is in charge of them so we always make an appearance. He loved his wagon we put Amber his cousin in there with him to kinda hold on to him and feed him a bottle on the way home. We didn't know how he would do with the loud noise but he loved them which was great.

Here are some pictures of the us at the fireworks.

                                           Nana and Mimi

                                         This one is my all time favorite

I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July and thanks to all our troops fighting over seas and to Tyler we miss and love you and come home safe.

The Invitations Are In

Here are Hudson's Invitations and I LOVE LOVE Them. She did a really great job on them.
Here is the Picture of it Let me know what yall think.

Im going to go ahead and order the rest of the party stuff from ETSY This is so much fun I cant believe that hes about to be one. O and another bottom tooth popped up today. I hope yall have a great 4th of July.