TODAY IS

Today is July 9, 2010. Today is a Bad Day for me. Today is a Sad Day. Today is a mer 11 Days of when I was supposed to be having my Mallory Grace and Mary Grace my sweet baby girls. As the days approach it makes me sad that I had them just 4 months earlier as Im reading other peoples blogs who have experienced a loss in a baby/babies it makes me incredibly sad. I miss my girls more than ever and its been really hard the past few weeks I cant believe there gone this is not how it was supposed to be in a few weeks we were supposed to be bringing our baby girls home to there big brother it was not supposed to happen this way as I go on I still get mad and angry and sad. I told Zach that I kinda wanted to go to church this Sunday I think that would be good for us but Im sill very angry with myself, just with everyone and everything. This was not how it was supposed to be, they should be in there mommy and daddy's arms. Im just speechless.......... I Miss My Baby Girls.....Life is not Fair......