Friday, March 19, 2010
Very Angry and Sad
Well its been almost 3 weeks since we had lost our twins. The first two went by as a blur. Then this week I went back to work big mistake it was way to early and I was a mess a freaking mess I walked through the door and lost it just started crying I didn't want to be there I just really didn't want to be anywhere. I'm lost I don't know how to grieve I just go on all bundled up inside and just act like it never happen I know that's not good or not a way to deal with it, but I'm really Angry and I really fill like I'm going to lose it on someone. I think its time to get help and talk to someone about this the hospital said that they had grieving classes for family's that deal with losing there babies. I really think its time I'm normally not an angry person but this about did me in. And I really want to talk to someone before I really go crazy on someone. I'm sorry to go on about this but this is my get away to vent I talked to Z about this and he thinks its a good idea whenever I'm ready and I think I'm ready. And the hormones aren't helping either.